justice, justice you shall pursue

its been more than a month since my last entry. forgive me if this sounds damaged.

how should i start? i suppose i'll start with my present disposition. a series of events accompanied with each own set of emotions and traumas - and wherein most of these circumstances did not allow catharsis - has led me here. where's that? exhausted and tired, angry.

its been a pretty rough 3 months for all of us. surely the lord didn't want it this way. at the end of some days we find ourselves unable to shake off our bitter temperament. some of us take our bleepers home - what's the point? hospital is home! with each passing minute we become more and more demoralised, acutely aware of our own feelings. we become nasty, impatient, short tempered, angry jerks.

i read something in deuteronomy last night. summed up it goes something like this. "justice, justice you shall pursue - [include mercy somewhere]. i remember God, and the task he set before me and my colleagues - i ask for forgiveness and feel empowered by a renewed sense of responsibility and mission.

i gotta get me this tattoo.